I am so sick of the ups and downs of this disease. For years, it wouldn't let me sleep. Now I have the opposite where I've been falling asleep sitting up. For some reason, the last bunch of months, I've got the reverse where I could just sleep forever. But no amount of sleep is refreshing and I toss and turn all night and have the night sweats so bad I soak everything. I'm just so tired of never knowing what's next. Bad day, okay day, dead day. It just doesn't stop. There is never a day where I feel okay. And the dizziness lately has been so severe that I haven't been able to do much of anything. I just wish the merry go round would stop already.